While on bed rest…

Ok so as you guys know I am off work the rest of this week due to a knee injury. Well while I have had my time off work, sitting on my ass at home so far I have become an AIM and Yahoo messenger freak. I recently touched back with a few friends and stuff… So there was this one guy that I used to have a crush on back in 9th grade, but never really showed that I liked him because I knew my friends would look at me a certain way. Yea this was back when I actually cared what my friends thought haha.

So we just became friends on Facebook and we have been talking for a while. One day I added him to my AIM buddylist but, with no intention to say hi or anything at the time. So one day I was checking my mail and logged on and he was on. I was bored and my friend was doing her own thing while she was at our house. So I send him a messaging saying “hey you”. Mind you he doesnt know its me yet.

Our Convo:

Me: Hey you…

Him: Um who is this?

Him: ?? hello?

*I walked away from the computer for a sec*

Him: stop bullshitting who ever this is

Me: Sorry

Me:Umm its your secret admirer lol

Him: I dont have time for these games..

Me: Hahaha omg its <my name> chill

Him: Ohhhh, well why didnt you just say that? hahaha

Me: Because I wanted to fuck with you…but I guess I was the only one who thought it was funny

Him: Hahaha yea yea, so what’s up

Me: Nothing much…I added you a while ago but never talked to you lol

Him: Oh thanks.

Me: I didnt mean it like that.. but anywho how are you?

Him: Im good, you? Its funny how people want to talk to me now on facebook lol

Me: What do you mean? What people?

Him: No one in particular…Its like ppl ignored me in high school and now that its been over and said ppl want to be all chummy.

Me: I see..well I hope I’m not in that category… I actually use to be friends with you until you stopped talking to me.

Him: Naw never you girl…and I stopped talking to you?? whatever I was in the shadows while you were in the lime light.

 

Well just to give you a little background, I was kinda of popular in high school everyone knew my name, I was in POMS and softball and school clubs, plus most of the “popluar”
 kids I knew since elementray school. Him on the other had was one of the “nerds” in to computer games and stuff like that. We were total opposites. We still are to this day. We we’re friends in 9th grade and a little in 10th grade until one day someone stopped talking to the other and that was it. In 9th grade I totally had a crush on him, but I never told him because i was affraid of being rejected. We continue to talk and it gets to the subject of of “back in high school”.

Our Convo:

Him: Yea I didnt care what ppl thought of me, I did my own thing, I didnt get into fads and all the high school bullshit.

Me: Yea I feel ya, I was known as the bitch towards 11th and 12 th grade, I didnt give a flying flip anymore, I hated the stupid trends, I only worried about what color converses I was wearing lol

Him: I would dress in the dark thats how much I cared

Me: hahah yea I could tell lmao jk

Him: oh thats fucked up..

Me: I would throw on some jeans a shirt and some chucks and I was set.

Him: Yea.. I use to like those jeans..

Me: Lol me or you?

Him: You silly ass :-*.. you were cute as hell, i loved your style.

Me: Ohhhh ahhha right. well I dress way better now than I did then..

Him: hmm I wouldnt know but you still looking good.

Me: Heh thanks your not 1/2 bad yourself, your getting a little buff there huh Mr. Marine?

Him: Yep, its all the training and stuff. Man in high school I would play games with people tricking them to tell me things that they didnt want to. It was funny

Me: Oh really.. like jedi mind trick shit?

Him: Exactly…but I had secrets of my own…

Me: Secrets like what???

Him: Well…I couldnt ever tell you this…

Me: Why not? who am I going to tell anyways? I wont tell really!

Him: Hahah I bet you could guess on your first try…

Me: Umm I dunno… your gay!!!! OMGGGGGGG ahahahhaha

Him: Im not gay! I was in love with you..

Him: Opps…damn I guess you tricked me…

Me: OMG.. really??? Naw…you werent your lying…lol

Him: Girl you couldnt tell??!! Remember in freshman yr when you got the valentine gram and it said ” You’ll never see me, but i love you”?

Me: Umm that year I got about 6 valentine grams…but one was from you?? OMGGGGGG. Thats so sweet. Maybe if you wrote your name on it I would have reconized!

Me: I totally had a crush on you in 9th grade too..teehee

Him: Wait.. you had a crush on me? Why didnt you tell me?

Me: I dunoo.. why didnt you tell me???

Him: <My name> you were out of my league you know that..so I didnt even want to attempt to try.

Me: What? there is no such thing as league…its called TRYING… I mean you could have atleast tried really.  Thats still so cute lol.

Him: I guess I should have….to late now

Me: Yea Im domesticated and your single and all the way in Cali now.

Him: Yea..that sucks…we could have been dating, maybe married by now and traveling the world..

Me: Hahaha…. oh reallly.. so I guess you thought it through if the time came? thats cute.

Him: I may have thought about it once or twice lol..

The conversation tunred into hours and the hours tunred in to days. Shit is scary because like I said before I have a man who loves me at home and I love him, but at the same time its like old reminicing feelings for my 9th grade crush is coming back slowly. Its so confusing and weird because right now, my fiance and I are trying to slow down our relationship because we feel as though everything isnt going as planned and someone is always getting on the others nerves. So to wrap it up in a nutshell, my man and I are having slight issues and my 9th grade crush is looking better and better each day. It could be my med’s messing with my head though. Or maybe its just me feeling nice about myself seeing that guys still like me and I still got it. I know for damn sure I wont throw away my friendship and relationship away on a high school crush. But it is so tempting, I would love to hit up Cali and visit him and go to the beach and show him out to live the true Cali life. Sigh…i have issues girls..